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[Squeezing him tight.]

He wouldn't begrudge you the stars. He still stargazes, all the time. You didn't ruin that for him.

[It's Louis, so she feels the need to make that clear.]

-- He does?

...

Why...? After -
After all that I did to him under the stars, why would he find himself drawn to them...?

I don't know. Maybe he just has other memories of watching the stars that aren't painful ones. I could ask, if you wanted.

No, it's... that's fine. It's fine. It's better that he has things about him that I don't know. I...
I don't want to know him.

...

My apologies. I know how much you love him.

You don't need to apologize for that. In your position, I wouldn't want to know the changed Chipp either.

-But. Maybe if you had more memories of stargazing that weren't just those ones, memories with me, it would hurt less for you too? Gradually.

I apologize to make up for the insult toward your boyfriend. To say you don't want to know someone - that's rude, isn't it?
Rude and hurtful.
It's worth apologizing for.

[Said as he tilts his head a bit, freeing his face from where he's buried it in her hair - just enough that he can look at her from the side of his eye, glowing pink-orange in the dark.]

... I... would like that. So long as it's with you.

[Her boyfriend also did very much kill him, so she thinks he's fairly justified, here.]

Of course. I'll be with you to soothe your aches. -I'd like that, too.

[Her boyfriend very much did kill him in order to get him to stop with the whole scar leaving thing, though --]

... That you recognize your presence is a balm around me further proves you've well earned that pet name, if you ask me.

Don't give me too much credit here for 'recognizing' that, I just asked you two seconds ago if I eased your pain and you said yes.

Fair enough. Fair enough, I did, in fact, say that.
But you haven't denied it, which is, in itself, a form of recognition. Isn't it?

It's pretty hard to argue with you about your own feelings, I would say.

You say that as if I don't do that every minute of the day. My feelings, at least, are transient at best.
Irrational and false at worst.

[... But he's also going to follow that up by cupping a hand around her cheek so he can give her a little peck.
Just a teensy one.]

I appreciate that about you, however. That you take them seriously, despite how easy it is for my feelings to be nothing more than a facade like the rest of me.

[Soft... She smooches him back gently.]

They matter to me, even if they don't matter to you. I want to make you happy as much as I possibly can.

You manage that quite handily.

[Another little kiss, because of course that thought gets a kiss with it.]

... Just being by your side is often enough.

That's good. -But I'm still going to keep doing my best to make you extra happy on top of that.

[Can't get lazy about it!]

Well, of course. I would expect nothing less from Ol Siaion. And I will... endeavor to do the same for you.
Otherwise, I'd simply be a bug, wouldn't I? Lacking honey like that.

You're doing a great job, honeybug. The sweetest bug I know.

[... Yeah, okay. He's nuzzling against her properly, now - even sitting up a touch so he can manage it.]

Anything for you. You know that, don't you?
I would do anything for you.

Really? Anything anything?

[Playing with his hair again.]

Anything-anything.

[...]

Unless you plan to use this against me in some way. And asking me to care for myself better is using it against me.
I know my flaws, you can't loophole through them.

Oh, no, that didn't even occur to me. -It probably should have, damn.

But I was thinking more, like. What if you were with Lycaon or Lucy and I called you like 'hey I need you to help me with something right now'?

- Well, considering who you chose in your short list, I'm going to assume I would be ecstatic to partake in whatever "help" any of you need.

Nonsexual help. Like I was having trouble sleeping and I needed you to knock me out, or something like that.

Ah.

[The tone of delight is gone. Entirely. Horrid little gremlin.]

Well, I would help you with that as well, of course. No questions asked.
I have no reason to deny you such help; why wouldn't I assist?

Because you were busy...?

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